Snowflakes @ SS1

The Good:

• Cheap
• Huge portions
• Self-service
• Has cute devices that beeps when your order is ready

The Bad:

• You have to climb one flight of stairs to reach the place.

The testimony: happy customers!

Teasers:

What's out there?

This whole semester has been equated to one word. A dreadful word I no longer wish would exist. Although, the very existence of that word means that I am fully enjoying freedom and have time in my hands.

BOREDOM.

Yes, I am bored. Apparently not bored enough to blog but bored all the same. Assignments coming in doesn't really take away boredom.

Dear friends, if you love me, call me out or invite me for lunch or a day out. I'll take you to boutiques, cinemas, shopping malls, eating outlets, or just about any place that would seem fit to spend time in.

I need to leave my house ;_;

On a side-note, I got a haircut:

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After going missing from the blogosphere... I began looking up my list of posts to see what sort of authorship I had before. I find that I keep changing the way I think many times over and go back to certain ways sooner than I thought I would. And... I found so many drafts left undone!

It seems I have a habit of not finishing what I started...

Reminds me of that personality test I took during the worship camp. It told me that I "think" through what I am supposed to do, then I have to "feel" right about it, before I can actually "do" what I am supposed to do.

That long process must really be the reason why I cannot finish things I start a lot of times. [Insert laughter here.]

Proverbs 13:4

"The sluggard craves and gets nothing, but the desires of the diligent are fully satisfied."

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Oh Lord that I may remember that life is nothing but a passing phase and that life in heaven is everlasting. May I live my life on earth fully toward your purpose and not fall back into the temptation of laziness.

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+ the PTPTN website was not made to love Malaysians +
+ slow semester this time round... +
+ taking things one step at a time +
+ struggling to be proactive +
+ began applications for honours +
+ chocolate place at One U has really, really good food! +
+ and good chocolate of course... +
+ watch toradora! it's worth your time +

Effort...

Why is everything taking up so much effort? >_<

Two More To Go!

That's right! Two more subby's and Carolyn's good to go! I'm so excited!

My brother's studying in the same university this time. A new experience! Hmm... what else is new this semester?

+ taking only two (2) subjects +
+ joining CF for the first time +
+ graduating at the end of this semester +
+ considering honours +
+ starting a prayer group +
+ first YM camp +

Oh yes, I will be playing for another wedding on March 14th. This is very exciting. Hmm. I've been thinking about this for awhile but it might be time to finally visit MIF; see their praise and worship, find out about how they practice, etc. Our worship ministry has always mentioned that there is a lack of "coaches" or resources for pianists. We've always been looking for them ourselves but I don't know about our younger pianists. I'm wondering if I should consider finding resources for us. Like get a teacher or find out a way to teach how to play for a worship team.

Meh. I'm overly excited today but that's probably just because it's the first week of the semester. I'll sober down soon enough. ;D

Four hours a day

Ever wondered if your day has been spent to its utmost? Whether, you have accomplished what you could for today and will not have to worry about it tomorrow?

Guess not... most of the time.

Today was dear's sister's birthday party. I promised Ah Ming (the person who takes care of his house) to help make sandwiches and I did! Apparently the kids love it too. It was the only thing they finished. (Yes, Carolyn is happy!)

Js wanted to watch "The Unit" while I was busy in the kitchen so when I went upstairs after I was done, he was still watching and annoyed over the noise the kids were making from downstairs. (He was using headphones before but changed to speakers for me. :D) Anyway, I didn't want to watch with him because: 1. I don't understand the show; 2. I was sleepy. Off I went to nap a bit in his room.

I woke up... four hours later.

Apparently I couldn't wake up despite Js' numerous attempts to wake me up. He claimed I woke four separate times but all that escapes my memory. I only remembered waking up because he decided to sit beside me and watch his drama from the laptop while waiting for me to wake up. I thought I was dreaming when I heard it =(

For the last week, every time my brother drops me off at his place at 7, I take a four hour nap without fail. (It's just too early to be awake on a holiday...) Considering that Js will be going back to Aussie on the 28th, I really should be appreciating every moment I have with him. And yet, I've been taking four hour naps over at his place. :( So not happy...

Is there a way to keep from being sleepy? Besides drinking coffee? (On that note, we discovered Belgium Chocolate from Coffee Bean tastes great with an extra shot of espresso!)

Anime/Drama Update!
Watching: SDK, Gem of Life, Toradora, Clannad (After Story)
Completed: Catch Me Now

By the way...

WELCOME BACK TO KL PUI MING!!!!

Thomas Sowell

"There are only two ways of telling the complete truth--anonymously and posthumously."

Posthumously means "after death" by the way.

11.February.2009:Wednesday
+ getting new specs tomorrow +
+ been playing wii for 3 days straight +
+ arms hurt lots x.x +
+ hoping changing a new layout would help get me in the mood to start blogging again... +
+ shopping online is fun +
+ writing fiction again: rpg this time :D +
+ hasn't blog-hopped in ages: where did some of you go??? +

Hebrews 11:6

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

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+ been slumping +
+ going through exams +
+ three more papers... +
+ wrote a new story! +
+ joo said she can't believe I wrote gore +
+ it wasn't all that gory! +

"I'm Alive"... huh...

Ranting dead ahead. Do not read unless you want to read meaningless garble.

My heart aches, my hands quiver, and my voice fails me. What is this feeling inside of me so dull and so huge that I cannot scream, move, or do anything but wait patiently ridiculously frustrated and in pain? Tears that fell so easily immersed in a fairy tale, could not make an appearance to relieve in reality. Probably because, in reality, I understand it all too well that it helps nothing. *In need of an exceptionally sad tear-jerker*

Why do I always push away important things before grabbing hold of it? It's so silly. Knowing how important it is to a person and yet loathing it in a confrontation. If loathing is another way of loving, why does it hurt? If loving hurts why love? Always knowing answers but having no way of understanding how to act it out hurts the most. It is as frustrating as listening to an explanation without a conclusion. The difference between head knowledge, heart felt emotions, wanting to do something, being able to do that something, and doing that something... wait, was there a difference or do they all come together?

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I'm Alive (BECCA, Kuro Shitsuji OST)

I was exceptionally touched by this song. It pulled the strings in my heart in such a way that it resonated so beautifully in harmony. I still cannot believe that I find this song the highlight of Kuro Shitsuji. Does that mean I don't like Kuro Shitsuji?

Nothing I say comes out right,
I can’t love without a fight,
No one ever knows my name,
When I pray for sun, it rains.
I’m so sick of wasting time,
But nothing’s moving in my mind,
Inspiration can’t be found,
I get up and fall but,

I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you’ll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I’ll sleep when I die,
I’ll live my life, I’m Alive!

Every lover breaks my heart,
And I know it from the start,
Still I end up in a mess,
Every time I second guess.
All my friends just run away,
When I’m having a bad day,
I would rather stay in bed, but I know there’s a reason.

I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you’ll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I’ll sleep when I die,
I’ll live my life, I’m Alive!

When I’m bored to death at home,
When he won’t pick up the phone,
When I’m stuck in second place,
Those regrets I can’t erase.
Only I can change the end,
Of the movie in my head,
There’s no time for misery,
I won’t feel sorry for me.

I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you’ll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I’ll sleep when I die,
I’ll live my life, ohhhh!

I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you’ll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I’ll sleep when I die,
I’ll live my hard life,
I’ll live my life,
I’m Alive!

Taken from: atashi@wordpress through gendou.com/amusic

Best Gift Ever!

I've decided.

The best gift anyone can ever give me... is a holiday!

Not just a holiday to spend at home but a holiday to travel somewhere other than my country!

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Exam starts tomorrow ;_;

Walkaton 2008

Oh gosh. The muscle aches haven't disappeared. Yours truly lacks too much in the exercise department.

+ currently at work +
+ not planning a big update +
+ will do so in the near future +
+ has pictures to blog about, but will save for later +
+ check out facebook for walkaton 2009 by leo monash +
+ have not blogged about walkaton 2009 at leomusc +
+ wants to download Death Fantasy I and II by Monty Oum +

Mid-sem Holidays Are No Fun!

It never is!

We always get tons of assignment piled up during this time because "there aren't any lectures or labs hindering you"!!!

That sucks!

Still... I guess the no-labs-no-lectures part works.

No, wait, that isn't right. The only reason why we've got this two tests after the mid-sem break and assignments etc. are because of one thing.

Darn clashes with Malaysian public holidays!

Lecture clashes are bad enough =\ I had to sit for a test an hour early this semester because of that. (That meant arranging for the time and having to even think of sorting it out even though it took only an email or two.)

But when public holidays come (and we all know how many Malaysia has... if we can count them...) all official activities cease. Lectures get delayed. Experiments get carried forward. Report due dates get pushed back... until they all pile up at the 13th week of the semester! (That's the last one ever.)

We're supposed to be following an Australian calendar with no Malaysian holidays!

It's no fun when you can't go on a real holiday and see stuff and play when everything's left for this week to do.

Huh? You're saying it's my fault I didn't do it earlier, aren't you!?

I can't blame you for that.
=(

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It occurred to me how I actually managed to pull it all off all these years. I actually prepared early. I wrote half my experiments in my reports before they get carried out and then write everything else on the last minute (which only takes a couple of hours because I've finished everything else). This semester was definitely different. I got so laid back I literally did everything the morning I had something due. Ugh.

Behind The Mirror...

Lately, I have often felt as though the path I seem to be heading is filled with bright, clear signs telling me that I've gone the wrong way. But in every other direction I turn, I only see one path that is ahead of me... filled with bright, clear signs that says it's the wrong way. Darkness fills the space behind me and on my sides. I turn with wary steps, to see if there's a path, but the darkness pulls at me in every other direction. Confused and lost, my cries for help left unheard.

Or... because no one expected to hear it, they thought it could not be me...

I see others walking in the darkness on paths that I could not see. I call out to them but they could not hear me. Yet, when I am silent, they turn to me with happy smiles and expect a mirrored image of their happiness. So I give it to them, and they turn away satisfied.

Is it okay to cry for help when you are expected to be the one hearing the cries of others and helping them?

Is it okay to be lost when others are looking to you for the right way?

It is okay to point them to the right way because they can see it but not go there yourself because you can't see it?

Perhaps there was a voice I hoped to hear but could not just because it had become so soft that it became as silent as my cries...

Monash Ball 2008 -belated post-

It's the one and only time in my whole uni life where I would turn up in a nice dress, styled my hair in a salon, wearing make up and nail polish! Seriously! Can you imagine all the trouble we have to go through to attend an event that lasted only 3 hours?!? (Okay, so that's very long... and I'm not counting the after party.)

Still... I'm glad I went. It was great fun with friends I know... going around snapping photos, complaining about how long before it was time for us to eat, looking at and commenting on everyone's costumes...

Speaking of costumes, the girls were very pretty that day! (Most turned up in formal wear as the boys so I shall not comment too much on that.) Yi Voon wore a black halter dress which was very nice. Mei Lin wore and pretty purple/pink dress that fit the colourful theme for mardi gras. Pui Ming was so 'yeng'! She dressed up in nice black slacks, white shirt with frilled collars and a black vest! Mei Lin and Pui Ming had their make up done by professionals and they did look very good. (Photos are all available on facebook... thus will not be posted up here).

Entertainment wise... I would say... I was rather disappointed with the ball. It wasn't formal and it wasn't fun (unless you were on stage...). The highlight of that night was our buffet dinner. Can you imagine? The dances were great and the fashion show was interesting. But the Miss and Mr Monash "event" (don't know what else to call it) was... obscene! I didn't come to a ball to watch a girl try to seduce a guy or a girl give a rose to another guy and french him! They had good events lined up but the way they presented them were awful!

This is an annual ball! It's supposed to be formal! For crying out loud, the vice pro vice chancellor was there! (It's a good think the PVC was not there instead.)

Sigh.

Anyway... I was immensely thankful for my friends who were there. At least they were around to make it fun.

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There you have it, my belated post on the Monash Ball... lolz... the excitement probably died down by now so I guess it's not that big a deal anymore. Just had to post it up because of my lack of events post. Haha.

H2

A baseball manga that was completed quite awhile ago (both the ori-Jap one and the scanlations) that I've only recently read. It was good. Just as good as everyone claimed it was. It was especially good for me because I didn't read anything about it before (except that it was about baseball). There wasn't anything cliche about it. The plot, the story, the way it was presented, etc. was all very original. Half the time, the pictures did the telling and that was that was the best part. It didn't need so many words and at the same time, it felt as though it was the manga-ka who was there with you while you read. It felt refreshing, like a good conversation with an old friend.

What really made me realize how good it was though, was in chapter 281 onwards. I won't tell you what happened here because it was completely unexpected the way the story went. The manga-ka had outwitted the readers in every sub plot that, just when you think something's going to happen, something entirely different happens instead! This chapter was especially good because the manga-ka made me think "yea right, that won't happen". I read the next few pages and was still thinking "that can't happen... right? It's impossible." and after the next few pages... I still couldn't accept what happened until the main character did in the end. Really! It was like going through the exact same emotions the main character did! It was a well thought out story.

Thus ends my personal/impersonal thought on a manga I've been following. Heh. I'm supposed to do an assignment due tomorrow. Why am I not doing it? (Sorry dear, I know I promised to too...) Sigh... I'm doing it... it's just that, unless I can figure this part out, I'm not going anywhere. And thinking about it for a full day hasn't brought me anywhere.

Well, here's me going back to reading and hopefully coming up with something.

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By the way, I *heart* this summary by One Manga.

Summary:
Hiro has two loves: baseball and porn. But due to an elbow injury he gives up baseball choosing a school with no baseball team. His childhood friend Hikari attends a different school with baseball ace Hideo and the two wish Hiro had not given up baseball. Hiro joins the soccer team but meets Haruka, a very clumsy girl, who is manager of the unofficial baseball club. When the soccer team challenges the baseball club to a game, with hopes of humiliating them, the baseball club nearly loses until Hiro, disgusted by the soccer team's arrogance, switches to the baseball club.