Frustrated...

This week must be a special week. A very special week indeed. I meet all kinds of people that I cannot comprehend.

Today, I arrived at praise and worship practice 5 minutes late and found a new keyboard waiting on stage. (I should be shouting for joy? Not quite.)

I really need to know who bought that thing. And ask why. It's a 66-key keyboard with functions that do not allow immediate change while "performing" and its sound is not controlled by touch. Unlike an upright or an acoustic piano, the sounds are so detached! I can't play strings properly, I can't play PIANO properly, and I can't PLAY properly.

It's frustrating.

The most important point is the 66-keys. It's so short! Everytime I play for the kindergarten I always think "thank goodness I don't have to play this keyboard for praise and worship because it's so short I can't play the bass keys properly."

Now?

I have an e***** 66-key keyboard for Sunday service.

They were supposed to buy the keyboard with both me and the other pianist present, or at least I was told so. That was to prevent BLOG POSTS LIKE THIS!

Save, Save, Save

Saving the world...

...through recycling, reusing, and reducing.

The recycling awareness campaign at Monash University Sunway by the Leo Club ends today. A whole tonne of papers, plastics, and other recyclables were sorted this morning in my absence. (Sorry, I overslept...)

Saving the community...

...through raising awareness and screening for diseases.

Saving up!

This week marks the... xth week I've been doing my best to save on expenses. (I can't remember how long... probably the whole semester though!) I bring my own lunch to uni, bring my own bottle of water... really saved a lot! And~~~ I go out much less so I don't spend as much on movies/expensive food/shopping :D

This should have been a photo post! lol!! But my mobile does not have anything for this =( Darn!

Bag That Awareness!

Calling all designers at heart! Gin & Jacqie are sponsoring a Breast Cancer Awareness contest from... May 15th to July 31st, 2009!

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Details:

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Your challenge is to create a design that will inspire thousands to become breast cancer aware.

How you go about achieving this is up to you. Your design could for example:

• * inspire others to support the fight against breast cancer
• * encourage people to raise funds for breast cancer research
• * communicate what breast cancer awareness means to you
• * signify the hope that research gives and the importance of being breast aware

MORE INFO HERE: http://www.emmagem.com/bagprintdesign

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Check out that site and see how you can join in this Breast Cancer Awareness Campaign. You may submit online or drop off at the locations listed.

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Submission example:

Prizes:

Spread the word:

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In support of BCWA.

For the Lack of...

Since there has been a lack of posts, I have decided to spam my own blog with multiple posts per day! That should keep you guys occupied for the next week or so...

Here are my updates:
06.May.2009:Wednesday
+ joined a Japanese avatar site +
+ played restaurant city on facebook +
+ finished one report late and one report early +
+ went shopping at boutiques instead +
+ did minor online shopping +
+ hyped up about Golden Key Sunway Monash again! +

Snowflakes @ SS1

The Good:

• Cheap
• Huge portions
• Self-service
• Has cute devices that beeps when your order is ready

The Bad:

• You have to climb one flight of stairs to reach the place.

The testimony: happy customers!

Teasers:

What's out there?

This whole semester has been equated to one word. A dreadful word I no longer wish would exist. Although, the very existence of that word means that I am fully enjoying freedom and have time in my hands.

BOREDOM.

Yes, I am bored. Apparently not bored enough to blog but bored all the same. Assignments coming in doesn't really take away boredom.

Dear friends, if you love me, call me out or invite me for lunch or a day out. I'll take you to boutiques, cinemas, shopping malls, eating outlets, or just about any place that would seem fit to spend time in.

I need to leave my house ;_;

On a side-note, I got a haircut:

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After going missing from the blogosphere... I began looking up my list of posts to see what sort of authorship I had before. I find that I keep changing the way I think many times over and go back to certain ways sooner than I thought I would. And... I found so many drafts left undone!

It seems I have a habit of not finishing what I started...

Reminds me of that personality test I took during the worship camp. It told me that I "think" through what I am supposed to do, then I have to "feel" right about it, before I can actually "do" what I am supposed to do.

That long process must really be the reason why I cannot finish things I start a lot of times. [Insert laughter here.]

Proverbs 13:4

"The sluggard craves and gets nothing, but the desires of the diligent are fully satisfied."

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Oh Lord that I may remember that life is nothing but a passing phase and that life in heaven is everlasting. May I live my life on earth fully toward your purpose and not fall back into the temptation of laziness.

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+ the PTPTN website was not made to love Malaysians +
+ slow semester this time round... +
+ taking things one step at a time +
+ struggling to be proactive +
+ began applications for honours +
+ chocolate place at One U has really, really good food! +
+ and good chocolate of course... +
+ watch toradora! it's worth your time +

Effort...

Why is everything taking up so much effort? >_<

Two More To Go!

That's right! Two more subby's and Carolyn's good to go! I'm so excited!

My brother's studying in the same university this time. A new experience! Hmm... what else is new this semester?

+ taking only two (2) subjects +
+ joining CF for the first time +
+ graduating at the end of this semester +
+ considering honours +
+ starting a prayer group +
+ first YM camp +

Oh yes, I will be playing for another wedding on March 14th. This is very exciting. Hmm. I've been thinking about this for awhile but it might be time to finally visit MIF; see their praise and worship, find out about how they practice, etc. Our worship ministry has always mentioned that there is a lack of "coaches" or resources for pianists. We've always been looking for them ourselves but I don't know about our younger pianists. I'm wondering if I should consider finding resources for us. Like get a teacher or find out a way to teach how to play for a worship team.

Meh. I'm overly excited today but that's probably just because it's the first week of the semester. I'll sober down soon enough. ;D

Four hours a day

Ever wondered if your day has been spent to its utmost? Whether, you have accomplished what you could for today and will not have to worry about it tomorrow?

Guess not... most of the time.

Today was dear's sister's birthday party. I promised Ah Ming (the person who takes care of his house) to help make sandwiches and I did! Apparently the kids love it too. It was the only thing they finished. (Yes, Carolyn is happy!)

Js wanted to watch "The Unit" while I was busy in the kitchen so when I went upstairs after I was done, he was still watching and annoyed over the noise the kids were making from downstairs. (He was using headphones before but changed to speakers for me. :D) Anyway, I didn't want to watch with him because: 1. I don't understand the show; 2. I was sleepy. Off I went to nap a bit in his room.

I woke up... four hours later.

Apparently I couldn't wake up despite Js' numerous attempts to wake me up. He claimed I woke four separate times but all that escapes my memory. I only remembered waking up because he decided to sit beside me and watch his drama from the laptop while waiting for me to wake up. I thought I was dreaming when I heard it =(

For the last week, every time my brother drops me off at his place at 7, I take a four hour nap without fail. (It's just too early to be awake on a holiday...) Considering that Js will be going back to Aussie on the 28th, I really should be appreciating every moment I have with him. And yet, I've been taking four hour naps over at his place. :( So not happy...

Is there a way to keep from being sleepy? Besides drinking coffee? (On that note, we discovered Belgium Chocolate from Coffee Bean tastes great with an extra shot of espresso!)

Anime/Drama Update!
Watching: SDK, Gem of Life, Toradora, Clannad (After Story)
Completed: Catch Me Now

By the way...

WELCOME BACK TO KL PUI MING!!!!

Thomas Sowell

"There are only two ways of telling the complete truth--anonymously and posthumously."

Posthumously means "after death" by the way.

11.February.2009:Wednesday
+ getting new specs tomorrow +
+ been playing wii for 3 days straight +
+ arms hurt lots x.x +
+ hoping changing a new layout would help get me in the mood to start blogging again... +
+ shopping online is fun +
+ writing fiction again: rpg this time :D +
+ hasn't blog-hopped in ages: where did some of you go??? +

Hebrews 11:6

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

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+ been slumping +
+ going through exams +
+ three more papers... +
+ wrote a new story! +
+ joo said she can't believe I wrote gore +
+ it wasn't all that gory! +

"I'm Alive"... huh...

Ranting dead ahead. Do not read unless you want to read meaningless garble.

My heart aches, my hands quiver, and my voice fails me. What is this feeling inside of me so dull and so huge that I cannot scream, move, or do anything but wait patiently ridiculously frustrated and in pain? Tears that fell so easily immersed in a fairy tale, could not make an appearance to relieve in reality. Probably because, in reality, I understand it all too well that it helps nothing. *In need of an exceptionally sad tear-jerker*

Why do I always push away important things before grabbing hold of it? It's so silly. Knowing how important it is to a person and yet loathing it in a confrontation. If loathing is another way of loving, why does it hurt? If loving hurts why love? Always knowing answers but having no way of understanding how to act it out hurts the most. It is as frustrating as listening to an explanation without a conclusion. The difference between head knowledge, heart felt emotions, wanting to do something, being able to do that something, and doing that something... wait, was there a difference or do they all come together?

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I'm Alive (BECCA, Kuro Shitsuji OST)

I was exceptionally touched by this song. It pulled the strings in my heart in such a way that it resonated so beautifully in harmony. I still cannot believe that I find this song the highlight of Kuro Shitsuji. Does that mean I don't like Kuro Shitsuji?

Nothing I say comes out right,
I can’t love without a fight,
No one ever knows my name,
When I pray for sun, it rains.
I’m so sick of wasting time,
But nothing’s moving in my mind,
Inspiration can’t be found,
I get up and fall but,

I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you’ll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I’ll sleep when I die,
I’ll live my life, I’m Alive!

Every lover breaks my heart,
And I know it from the start,
Still I end up in a mess,
Every time I second guess.
All my friends just run away,
When I’m having a bad day,
I would rather stay in bed, but I know there’s a reason.

I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you’ll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I’ll sleep when I die,
I’ll live my life, I’m Alive!

When I’m bored to death at home,
When he won’t pick up the phone,
When I’m stuck in second place,
Those regrets I can’t erase.
Only I can change the end,
Of the movie in my head,
There’s no time for misery,
I won’t feel sorry for me.

I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you’ll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I’ll sleep when I die,
I’ll live my life, ohhhh!

I’m Alive, I’m Alive, oh yeah
Between the good and bad is where you’ll find me,
Reaching for heaven.
I will fight, and I’ll sleep when I die,
I’ll live my hard life,
I’ll live my life,
I’m Alive!

Taken from: atashi@wordpress through gendou.com/amusic

Best Gift Ever!

I've decided.

The best gift anyone can ever give me... is a holiday!

Not just a holiday to spend at home but a holiday to travel somewhere other than my country!

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Exam starts tomorrow ;_;

Walkaton 2008

Oh gosh. The muscle aches haven't disappeared. Yours truly lacks too much in the exercise department.

+ currently at work +
+ not planning a big update +
+ will do so in the near future +
+ has pictures to blog about, but will save for later +
+ check out facebook for walkaton 2009 by leo monash +
+ have not blogged about walkaton 2009 at leomusc +
+ wants to download Death Fantasy I and II by Monty Oum +