Thursday, February 25, 2010

When what you want is just not the same as the next person

It's really great when you know your purpose in life. And really great when you find others who are going in the same direction as you are. But it's not so great when you find out one day that, their commitment to what you wish to do is just not the same. I mean, your priorities will never be the same as the next person. And just because it's not the same, it doesn't mean you expect them to rearrange it so it's the same as yours. Not all of us have the same important things.

I've always remembered this story about Mary and Martha. Martha was the sister who was distracted with preparations to receive Jesus into their home while Mary was the one who sought his teachings. Because of this, Martha asked Jesus why had he not told Mary to help her in the kitchen. But Jesus said that Mary had chosen the better thing and that will not be taken away from her.

I remembered a lot of teachings from this story. The first was the more obvious. Isn't it more crucial to learn everything you can from Jesus while he was still in flesh and blood on earth? Or in today's world, isn't it more important to spend time learning and getting to know Jesus rather than be worries and flustered about your day-to-day life? Because, Jesus teaches you about life and more importantly, eternal life. (For instance, he teaches us not to worry. Is not life more important than food and the body more important than clothes?)

The second less obvious teaching was, who are you compared to the two sisters? Are you Martha the worry-wart? Or are you Mary, the one who knows what's truly important to her? Even so, what Jesus said meant that while Mary had chosen the better thing, Martha has her place as well. To Martha, preparing food and comfort for her guests is important. To Mary, it was learning everything she can from Jesus. So, while Mary chose the better thing, it doesn't mean Martha hasn't chosen the right thing. I can't find the passage right now but I know that in a later event, Martha was still serving guests but this time she had not bugged Mary to help her. It really means that, you have your gifts and in the same event, you might not be doing the same thing as the next person.

Everyone has their important thing and you don't go telling someone else to do your important thing.

While it's great for those who knows what are their important things, there are still many of us who are still looking for it. We're comfortable to a certain extent with how we live but there's always that nagging feeling that there's more to it. Sometimes we just need to reach out and grab it. Or just take a bold step in a direction to find out if that's really important to us. Or take a step back to realize that maybe what we're currently doing isn't meant for us.

Sometimes I truly understand how someone else gets upset when they're stood up or when no one turns up for a meeting they plan or a practice they've scheduled. I really get it if you're annoyed that someone made a commitment and failed to fulfill it.

But what I don't get is the unfair comments they say after everything you've done. Really makes you realize that, it's not the many good things you've done but the one time you mess up that matters to everyone else.

Monday, February 15, 2010

How Not To Spend V-day cum CNY

Spending V-day without that special someone is somewhat depressing if you're a festive person. (Which thankfully, I'm not.) But spending V-day with your brother? In two different shopping malls in less than two hours? Oh-em-gee.

I had expected pyramid and subang parade to be... well, quite dead on cny but I hadn't expected sooo many shops to be closed! There goes the bag shopping plan. Now I have no backpack to use. (I guess I could sew it up a bit more so it wouldn't break within the next... I don't know... one week?)


In view of my present boredom, I have decided to report on my daily activities. (Oh, it's a given I'd be spending time with darling given that he's back from Aussie until the end of February, so this won't be included in my report. ;P)

If I'm not doing labwork, I'm writing labwork.
If I'm doing non-labwork related activities, I'm on facebook.
If I'm not on facebook, I'm reading and responding to emails.
If I'm not dealing with emails, I'm dealing with MUPA-related events.

It's quite routine actually. I would add reading manga to this list but I've run out of manga I'd like to read. Recommendations anyone?

Current facebook apps:
+ Zoo World +
+ Mafia Wars +
+ Cafe World +
+ Restaurant City +
+ Bejeweled Blitz +

Recent Links
+ MUPA: a sub-division of the Monash Student Council +
+ MUPA Intranet: A site for all Monash Masters, PhD & Hons students +
+ Land of Acardia: A role playing site at deviantart +

Keeping Up With:
+ Ashita no Ou-sama (recently completed) +
+ Bloody Monday Season 2 +
+ Detective Conan +
+ Fairy Tail +
+ Full Metal Alchemist +
+ Goong +
+ Hajime no Ippo +
+ History's Strongest Disciple Kenichi +
+ K-On! +
+ Kekkaishi +
+ Naruto +
+ Skip Beat +
+ The One +
+ One Piece +
+ Xxxholic +


Spending time with family is important to many people. 
I on the other hand, try my best to spend as little time with them. 
I wonder why. 

Monday, January 25, 2010

What I Miss

Honours year is so short. Research is fun. People... not so much. In fact, am so fed up with having to put up with lousy attitudes that I've become so cynical and mean. Although, having people with an attitude around made me realize that there are also those who understands and are truly awesome. Thanks everyone for being supportive (if you know me, you know what I'm talking about.)

Putting people aside, research has been going on smoothly. I've taken up a presidency post with the Monash Postgraduate Association at the Sunway Campus. It's a lot of work. Sat for my first student council meeting on Saturday and found out it was five hours long. Was definitely not prepared.

Meetings, research, and avoiding ignorant snubs have taken up too much of my time.

I miss having time to sit down, relax with a cuppa, and do nothing work related.
I miss my piano.
I miss being able to sleep at ten and wake up at ten.

I just miss being me.


Joined a group with Joo at deviantart. Am apparently supposed to proofread.
Will explain more later.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

We Don't Date N00bs, We Pwn Them!

That sentence is just awesome! Check out n00b boyfriend by college humour:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JVfVqfIN8_c

By the way,

Carolyn has great friends! :D

My car broke down today (thankfully within Sunway College so we weren't on the road). The water pump wasn't working and I think a safety device was stopping the engine from running to prevent it from over-heating. My brother was with me so that was a good thing. He went to get the mechanic and paid for everything. When a frustrated message was posted on fb and msn, I was thankful for two friends who offered to fetch me from the train station! (No car = public transport.)

See, Carolyn isn't used to getting help without having to ask because Carolyn usually just asks for them beforehand. So when Carolyn's friends offer their help, she's really very happy and grateful.

Thank you for making my day!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Thinking and Waiting

September.22.2009:Tuesday
+ Happy Raya (Day 2) +
+ watching The Ugly Truth with chian and voon +
+ waiting for plates to grow +
+ thinking if I should start the susceptibility test tomorrow +
+ should've told God my worries sooner +

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Paradox

I am the perfect example that being a Christian does not mean you're perfect.

Monday, September 7, 2009

Graduation 2009

Nine hours,
Seven blisters,
Six great friends,
One certificate.

Fun times!

That's what I brought back with me on the 5th of September, 2009 (Saturday). I've always thought that graduation would be a very boring ceremony. There was the fear of speeches and the long waiting.

Surprisingly though, I was very wrong! (Okay, so maybe not surprising.)

The graduation ceremony itself was generally painless. They gave us a light-hearted demonstration on what to do on stage. There was the academic procession where the academic council and educators (i.e. lecturers) walked in with their full academic gown. I learned what it meant to doff your hat (without taking it off). It seems that in an academic ceremony, doffing is how you show that you're acknowledging another person's presence. There was only one true long speech in the whole event. Other than that, it was really, truly a ceremony.

Graduating candidates went up on stage to be told one by one "ancora imparo" by the councillor. To be wished well for the future by our pro vice chancellor before walking down the stage. To be told to pick up our pictures after the event. (Haha!) The (now) graduates will then follow the academic procession out of the hall at the end.

The afternoon was spent running around the university, taking as many pictures as possible. The evening was spent meeting up friends and wishing each other well. Taking photos, remembering the occasion, catching up, and mostly... doing one's best to not think of pain. (One should always remember to wear comfortable shoes no matter what...)

Rather than the actual event, what made me happy or what made this event most memorable was my friends. One dropped by before I left to give me a bouquet of flowers. (That really teared me up, thanks lots!) Two others showed up for the graduation when I didn't think they would (since they've already graduated ages ago). And three great friends just made the day splendid! (You know who you all are!)

I don't have our pictures now but once they're here, I'll put them up on facebook or picasa. (Thanks D-Way for "immortalizing" that day!) I really had a great time. Like what Ming said, that day, graduating must have been a secondary purpose for me too. I left that hall thinking: I've still got so much to do! Graduation, it really isn't an end at all. Especially not when you're still going back to the university to finish off your honours year!



Thank you so much!


Roses are pink, roses are cream...


They're very pretty!


Before the graduation... I actually had make up on. Nona was saying, better put to make sure photos turn out better. (Haha!)


After the graduation... A pic with the photographer for the day. Thanks lots!


More to come...

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Christian Book Fair

Just got back from the book fair at Menara PGRM (oh dear, I don't even know what it's called or where it was... I know the way there though).

Funny thing is, I did not hear about it until today (the last day of the book fair). If it wasn't for Miss Beh who needed someone to show her the way there, I wouldn't have gone either. Can't say I regret going now. (How could I? I was surrounded by books! It was splendid!)

Found out a friend, who happened to be at that fair, was working for Canaanland (a Christian bookstore); from which I bought these lovelies: "What the Bible says about" series on worship and emotions; and a book on relationships in life.

So yesh, Carolyn has books to read for the next week or so! I got bored of anime/manga so to speak and having books to read is great. Can't wait for the Five Greatest Warriors by Matthew Reilly to come out soon!


Today's verse (from the Gideons):
so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
  It will not return to me empty,
  but will accomplish what I desire
  and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.

(Isaiah 55:11)

Saturday, August 15, 2009

That's what I thought it should be

Logical reasoning, emotional response, and then faith. Never in any other order... because it's impossible to say you believe in something unless you have a reason and a good emotional response towards it. You believe in logic because it feels right. It makes you feel at peace.

Right?

Friday, August 14, 2009

Without deeds, it is nothing

I hurt you a lot.

Yet, I want to be the only one by your side.

It hurts to be the one in a relationship who loves the other more.

Love can never be sweet and happy unless you put your dearest before your self.

What have you ever done to make your beloved happy?

I shudder as I remember the words of James...


Faith and Deeds

(:14) What good is it, my brothers, if a man claims to have faith but has no deeds? Can such faith save him? (:15) Suppose a brother or sister is without clothes and daily food. (:16) If one of you says to him, "Go, I wish you well; keep warm and well fed," but does nothing about his physical needs, what good is it? (:17) In the same way, faith by itself, if it is not accompanied by action, is dead.

(:18) But someone will say, "You have faith; I have deeds."
      Show me your faith without deeds, and I will show you my faith by what I do.

(:19) You believe that there is one God. Good! Even the demons believe that—and shudder.

(:20) You foolish man, do you want evidence that faith without deeds is useless? (:21) Was not our ancestor Abraham considered righteous for what he did when he offered his son Isaac on the altar? (By the way, if you read Genesis 15, his son was not sacrificed in the end.) (:22) You see that his faith and his actions were working together, and his faith was made complete by what he did. (:23) And the scripture was fulfilled that says, "Abraham believed God, and it was credited to him as righteousness," and he was called God's friend. (:24) You see that a person is justified by what he does and not by faith alone.

(:25) In the same way, was not even Rahab the prostitute considered righteous for what she did when she gave lodging to the spies and sent them off in a different direction? (:26) As the body without the spirit is dead, so faith without deeds is dead.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Honours Year

It starts today!

Just attended a short honours briefing and realized how behind time I might actually be even with all the "preparation" I went through for the last few weeks.

Ish very much excited!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Sunburns

They're not exactly the best thing to look forward to on a day at the beach. It turns red and stays red and itches and... well, if you've had a sunburn, you know what it's like.

July.25.2009:Saturday
For the five of us who went to PD last Saturday, it was fun! It felt like we were kids again. We played in the sea, flew a kite, build what looked like a fort (or tomb) instead of a sandcastle (which we demolished to make other less demanding structures). We even got to chase a beachball down the beach. It wouldn't stop rolling because of the wind. It wouldn't get thrown where we threw it (unless of course the wind favours that direction). I think all of us just got too tired to even try playing with it after that. Haha. (It's probably good to consider investing in a volleyball for beach outings. It's heavier than a blown-up-beach-ball, it floats, and it's probably easier to throw against the wind.)

I know I wouldn't be able to experience that in awhile. Being able to play like a little kid with no worries. We even saw a plane fly by real, real low while playing in the sea! (Well, considering we took the Sepang way, we saw quite a lot of airplanes throughout the day.)

The exciting part of the day was actually being able to drive Mei Lin's Gen 2. Lol! We were supposed to go in two cars because there would be 6 of us but one of us decided not to come. (I wonder who... you missed a nice relaxing day out! xD) Anyway, since there were only five, we picked the Gen 2 over the Kembara considering we have to travel for one hour and 30 minutes at least.

That day, when I got home (about 40 minutes before having to go prepare for 100% worship), I got another surprise waiting for me!

My acceptance letter arrived~

Carolyn's starting honours this August!



Voon, Peng and Mei!
I told you the picture would like clear because of the sun XD



Mei posing for me xD. That's the beach we were going to. It was nice, and peaceful, and nice. (Thanks Voon!) We had just got out of the ladies waiting for the rest to get ready for the beach. We even had a reason for that.
"Girls always need the ladies before going out."



The scene from behind the fence. We were still waiting ;)


All of us at the beach!


Putting on sunblock.
(Here's when you ask your friends to help you with your back because... that's where you do not want sunburns!)


That's all I've got from my handphone. We should never get delicate equipment wet. Especially not with salt water. ;)

Will upload pictures from Yi Mei once I'm at home Uploaded pictures to the photo album!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009

Low Yat Visit

Once again I find myself in this building of wonderful offers. Only, this time, I wasn't there to buy anything for myself.

Today, my job was to help YM and YP choose laptops for themselves. They're leaving overseas to do masters and are therefore looking for PCs to use. I love computers in general and was pleased to be able to go window shopping with them (since I can't buy one for myself...) By the way, thanks for the lunch! It was an awesome lunch at First Cup (some cafe I saw for the first time at Sungei Wang).

Anyway, we pretty much ruled out Toshiba and HP and Acer from our list of brands to consider. I mean, come on... Acer's just cheap and really cheap (in price and... well, no offence, but in quality as well). HP and Toshiba's just too expensive for something you can find in other more reliable brands.

Thus, we were left with two brands of choice: Asus and Dell. (There are two of them, and they each insist on getting two different brands. Oh well.) =P

It's fun walking around low yat looking at different laptops at different shops. And it's nicer still when someone else has to deal with talking to the shop owners/sales persons. (Less stress haha...) Oh, I managed to come home with Cyber Clean for my keyboard and a laptop keyboard skin to make it easier to clean dust off it! No more painstaking effort spent on getting dust out from under the keys! (Came back happy, definitely!)

ASUS K40 (AB/IJ)
It's amazing how many different offers were made for this particular model. It was within budget initially (under RM2500). I knew nothing about this brand beforehand so all I could do was listen and check the specs.

The Good
+ lots of free gifts were offered +
+ price range is acceptable +
+ cheaper warranty than Dell +
+ durable +
+ offers other than Intel processors +
+ uses its own technology (apparently) +

The Bad
+ usually comes without OS (freedos) +
+ does not come with original Office (costs more if it does) +
+ no bluetooth (not a problem, free USB offered) +
+ does not come with system CDs (costs more if it does) +

Dell Studio 14
I have always been a Dell fan so I've actually looked this up before looking for it today. In fact, the first thing I did when I came home was to come up with a detailed specs list and end price offered for this model.

The Good
+ stylish, more colours to choose from +
+ cheaper than Asus (all things considered) +
+ reliable tech support and great after sales service +
+ durable +
+ price includes original OS and Office programmes +

The Bad
+ no free gifts (lol!) +
+ expensive warranty +
+ doesn't have its own technology (but it has the best combination IMO) +

I feel like upgrading my own beloved lappie after looking at Dell Studio 14 (my precious bao bei); it's a Dell Vostro 1400 by the way. Get better RAM, better graphics card, and maybe a larger HDD space. But, I'm not sure if I can trust what it can be upgraded to... Hmm... Besides, I have no problems with it at the moment.

I still love my bao bei the way it is!

Friday, July 3, 2009

After Exams Paintball!

July.02.2009:Thursday
+ movie marathon: Transformers 2 & Ice Age 3 +
+ the movies were awesome! +
+ bought Mansfield Park and Little Women +
+ tried out Krispy Kreme in Malaysia +
+ can't say it's any different from Aussie's +
+ probably only much smaller +
+ had a great time! +

July.01.2009:Wednesday
+ suffering from muscle aches +
+ can't go through standing or sitting without pain +
+ never dreaded the stairs more +
+ really want endurance training! +

June.30.2009:Tuesday
+ paintball at Tanamera (Sungai Buloh) +
+ largest paintball park in South East Asia +
+ check out their facebook group +
+ 8.30am to 11.59am: getting there and settling down +
+ 12pm to 3pm: Paintball! (6 rounds: 5 last man standing & 1 zombie) +
+ lunch was in between +
+ came back with no bruises (^_^)V +
+ friend's post on our paintball outing +

June.29.2009:Monday
+ final, final exam over and done with! +
+ lunch at Agefuku, Taipan +
+ bought The Other Boleyn Girl by Phillipa Gregory +
+ finished reading it the next night +
+ heard that it was way different from the movie +

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Children See, Children Do

What are we doing for our future generation?
What have we learned from our parents?
What are our children going to be?
What will you be?

Your choice...

"These commandments that I give you today are to be upon your hearts. Impress them on your children. Talk about them when you sit at home and when you walk along the road, when you lie down and when you get up. Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads. Write them on the doorframes of your houses and on your gates." [Deuteronomy 6:6-9]


Ephesians 5:19-20
“Speak to one another with psalms, hymns and spiritual songs. Sing and make music in your heart to the Lord, always giving thanks to God the Father for everything, in the name of our Lord Jesus Christ.”